Some of your emotional struggles are finally over as you decide to move to the next step on your path. It is possible that you weren’t obliged to stay put in one place for this long, but you cannot change the past. All you can really do is learn from it so you don’t repeat yourself in the future. The process you are in requires time and energy. Don’t take your internal states for granted or push them aside. They are deep and truly important to your evolution and future happiness.