Inspiration and creativity have possibly been lost to the past, to traumas and dark events that never had a chance to be metabolized properly. Everything that still pains you is a wound that yearns to be healed, not something to shove aside and pretend that it isn’t there on the chase for “normalcy”.
Take a moment for breathing and relaxation, giving your body a chance to regenerate to begin with. When rest kicks in and your spasms are finally released, emotions will automatically cleanse as well.